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Deadly_Night_Shade007
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Name: Sara
Country: United States
State: New Mexico
Metro: Santa Fe
Birthday: 2/29/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: My interests (If anybody cares.) are: Music, almost anything in the Rock genre. Movies, perferibly Sci-fi, cult, horror, indie. Things like: Anime, fantasy, guitar, Gerard, anything weird, dark and creepy, My Chemical Romance, true-crime, black, dressing up, computer and video games, Lord of the Rings, Star Wars, James Bond (Yeah so I'm a dork.) Reading about crime and the Mafia, red lipstick, roses, combat boots, photography, coffee, beads, skulls, candles, inscense, poetry, black cats, bats, jewelry, vampires, medieval stories and clothes, japanese art, art in general, and ice cream. The list can go on, so if you want to know anything else just ask.
Expertise: Well actually I'm not good at anything, but I'll be optimistic and say Gerard, photography and being obsessive and compulsive.
Occupation: Undertaker
Industry: Crypt Keeping.
Message: message me
MSN: nu_nu182
Yahoo:  lidless_eye182
AIM:  shotgunsinner007
Member Since:
11/28/2004
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| FUCK!!!  I feel like I'm going to die.  Ugh. I changed my meds......all my OCD problems came back.....I'm like scared to. I know there's nothing after me, but I'm just have this feeling that something horrible is going to happen. I've been supier sensitive to light and sound to. I can't sleep becasue I'm scared, every little noise wakes me up. I'm going through terrible withdrawl sypmtons. I feel so sick. I can't stop shaking and I feel like I have a fever, but I dont. I want my old medication back so bad!!! Why did I agree to change? -Sara | | |
| This pass week has been stupid. Nuff said. My shrink and my therapist both piss me off. They don't know shit about me. Even though I've known them for almost 10 years. I changed my meds from Paxil to Prozac, plus I'm still taking Wellbutrin. I hope this change works for the best. We're currently havning a huge money problem. The water tank thing broke and it cost 800$ to get it fixed. Also the carpet had to be replaced in the Iowa house. That was another 400$. My mom's been complaining about everything. She has a right to though. Almost everything in our house is broken. A list. The fridge.
The eclectrcicity in almost all the rooms.
The heat is broken.
The washing machine.
The dish washer.
The carpet is half taken apart.
The ceiling in the bathroom is about ready to collaps. The sad thing is, is that we don't have the money to pay for this, and if we're going to move and rent out the house, these things need to be fixed. I'm thinking about trying to sell my car. I think I'd get alot for it, since it's practically brand new. It's going to be sad since I haven't had it for very long. But the main reason of me getting it pretty much went down the drain so there's no reason not to sell it if it's going to help us out. So I pretty much feel like throwing myself in front of a bus. That doesn't matter anyway. I'm always depressed so it's not like anything big. If only I could get out of this fucking town I think things would be so much better. I wish there was someone I could tell all my problems to and they wouldn't just be caring if I'm going to college right now. I SWEAR IF THAT IS FUCKING BROUGHT UP AGAIN I WILL EXPLODE!!! Going to collenge is not number one on my priority list right now, I have other problems to solve first. Plus how am I supposed to go off and do this if my mental state is really bad?  Fuck I don't know what I'm going to do........ ♣ -Sara | | |
| You didn't even call to tell me good luck on the test. You didn't even call when you said you would. So why should I call you first? Blah, ok Today was the first day of my GED testing. It went better than I thought it would, even though I think I got an advanced test. The questions were alot harder then ones on the pretest. So I guess I did good on the pretest. Surprisingly. I go tomorrow to do the rest. I'll be there all day, so I'm going to have to drink alot of coffee. At least I'm done with math. I had another nervous breakdown last night. I've had at least ten of them on the last month and a half.  I think being nervous triggered the one last night. Plus some certain people really upset my mental health. Geez I really need t o get a fucking life. Ugh. I want a new pet rat. I miss my old one Jellybean. He was a good rat. It would drive Gerard Jingles crazy though. I watched the Scream Awards last night. MCR was on. They were really good anf Gerard was beautiful  and chubby. ♠ -Sara | | |
| I'm pretty much mad at everyone. I like have this intense anger problem going on. Especially when I think of Anthony/Carly/Keshia and everyone they're associated with. I seriously need to get away from this town. It's like I'm not sad anymore, it's more angry and hostile. Everytime I think about those people I start shaking and I feel like I'm going to pass out. It's that bad. Maybe I need anger management....... I went to the therapists today. She hasn't been helping me with any of my problems. She's just obsessed with me going off to collenge. GRRRRRRRR!!! To top all my problems (Even though my problems are pretty stupid.) The GED's tomorrow. Gah. Ok I'm off to watch the Scream Awards. -Sara | | |
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